awaiting baby erin's arrival

I have not been feelings the holidays much this year, until one particular day. I was in the grocery store the other day grabbing some lunch from their hot food bar. As I was putting my salad and candy on the counter, this older man in front of me was teasing the attendant. He seemed so jolly of an old man. The attendant began admiring the pins on the man's hat, and he proceeded to tell her that he served in WW1 and WW2. She started laughing because, how was he old enough to serve in WW1? As he grabbed his things, she said "Happy Holidays". He turned and said "No ma'am, it's Merry Christmas". That was the moment I got into the Christmas spirit.

My sister is about ready to pop with my niece, and we're all sitting around in anticipation near our phones waiting for the call we all want to hear. I cannot wait to have baby Erin here for the holidays, but I keep wondering about some things, particularly about Bruce. I love that little man SO much, it's hard to put it in words. When I did try to put it in words was during my maid of honor speech at my sister's wedding, causing me to flood the scene with tears over my love for the little man. I keep asking myself how it's possible for me to love this new little one as much as I love my Brucie baby. He is just the world to me, it's a feeling I've never experienced before. I know that once she gets here I will love her as much, and I will also continue to love my Brucie baby who I think will always have a special place in my heart above all others. It's not just because he was the first I experienced these emotions with, but he also is my godson and that holds special meaning in my family. Christie even told me this morning he was asking her if I was coming over today. You see, my nephew loves godzilla movies, at the age of 2. Yes, he's crazy. When I come over, his house, his favorite thing to do is play godzilla. I stomp around after him while he screams, and I'll pick him up and throw him on the bed or sofa. He loves it! I just hope I have the same bond with her.