Well, it's been a good....2 months? since I've told the world about my life. No real reason, I just don't write unless I have something worth saying. My mind is always flowing with new ideas and thoughts everyday, and to write them down all the time would be tiring. And I also forgot I had this thing, leading to me forgetting to update it.

it's raining pretty hard here. it's one of those days that makes me wanna curl up in my bed and stay there, snuggly and warm, until it stops. Amy was supposed to be heading down here tonight, but I think she's gonna wait until tomorrow morning which kinda sucks. I was looking forward to hanging out with her, watching some movies or something like we used to together all the time. Oh, well. The halloween party is gonna rock tomorrow night at Heather's, so I'm pretty excited. We're gonna have a lot to drink. On the agenda is jungle juice, jack o'tinis, brain hemmorage shots, and various other liquers and beers. I'm probably gonna get drunk and pass out in some corner of the room while everyone does mean things to me like draw penises on my arms and legs. ah, i love those people. I'm sad Cat can't come, but I have a lot of my friends coming to the party like Jim and Sara, and hopefully Tori, so I think it's gonna be a fun time. For all i went through for my costume, it better be.

I visited a wastewater treatment plant this morning for one of my classes. Man, it is a dirty job and it smells pretty bad. It's pretty amazing what they can do to make it so much more cleaner than when it came in. Basically, different microbs in the reactors degrade different substrates in the influent, ridding the water of nitrogen, phosphorus, and BOD which kills fish. Oh yeah, I know how to design those now.

My past weekend at Salisbury was awesome. We didn't get there until Saturday morning because I had to be at work late Friday night. We went out to Brew for someone's birthday and had a blast with all our old friends. And since Cat's 21 now, she could finally come with us. I got pretty intoxicated and Amy and I passed out sometime between 4:30-5am. Typical. Sunday was football at a bar. The Ravens lost BOO! Actually, they kinda suck this year so, I'm not surprised.

School is school. I just took my midterm yesterday and I think I pretty much aced it, so I'm not worried. And I totally overstudied for it which I guess isn't a bad thing. I was done so quickly, and everyone else needed so much time, so I hope I didn't screw something up. I want 2 A's this semester. I know I'll get one in my Law class, and I'm really trying to get one in this class. It would be nice to get my GPA that high and I've never had a 4.0 semester before. Weird that it would happen in graduate school where it's supposed to be the hardest. I want that new student discount back on my car insurance! I think I'm getting new car insurance sometime soon. Mine is rediculous because of the type of car I drive, plus I'm not 25 yet. Suckers. Allstate is offering me a lot lower than I'm paying now in my estimate, so I'm waiting to see how much the actual quote will be.

alright, i'm headed home. it's friday!

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as the summer winds down, i find myself thinking about where the past 3 months have gone. i didn't have a bad summer, yet i can barely remember what i did. there were good times and bad times, and i remember the bad times like they were yesterday. it's something i've just been thinking about, because it depresses me. what's even more depressing is the fact that classes start next week, and i think i would rather slit my wrists then take another class here. hopefully a job will be coming through soon so that i can quit here and start anew. i'm hoping it's a job i actually want, but if it's not, it's something else to do besides this while i look for a good job.

this past weekend was amazing. i went out with friends friday night and had the time of my life. my legs are still sore from all the dancing we did. josh and i were definately the drunkies of the group and could barely stand to walk to the car. it was a good night overall, and lifted my what feels like always depressed mood.

i will be heading to the bury in 2 weekends to see cat and amy. i'm sure that will be a major pick-up since i haven't seen amy since july and cat since may. i'm sure i'll have so much fun that i won't want to leave, as always. i'm trying hard to keep all my friends that are still over the bridge, especially those two. it's weird to think that i have barely any connection left to what was the best time of my life at college. while greg was there, i got to see a lot of friends and still feel like i belonged there when i visited. i loved college. it was the one time in my life where i was always truly happy with everything, even if i was stressed about something class-related. i still loved where i was, who i was, and who was in my life. i was totally free and away from home. i guess the reason why i hate this school so much because it is the total opposite of salisbury. all people do here is study and go to class. you can't find half the school at the local bar down the street drinking $1 beers, or at a homecoming football game, or outside reeking havoc during field day. those were the days, and i think about them often as if i'm holding onto them so i don't forget what it was like to be there.

don't get me wrong, i have friends here and i love them. they are my escape from reality when things get tough. they make me feel wanted, which is the best thing in the world! i think some of my really close friends are thinking about moving to florida, which would really depress me more than anything i can think of [besides not having greg anymore]. i hope it's not true

i swear, i'm really depressed! just trying to make my way into the world.

our white four-legged friends

i have a new animal love in my life. polar bears. ah, how soft and cuddly they look. i was watching a show on tv about them, and they really are quite amazing. the sad thing is, they're very endangered because of global warming. polar bears rely on water bodies freezing over during the winter months so they can walk on the ice, migrating to another place with more food. with the changing climate, the ice isn't staying frozen as long and they have less and less time to feed before having to come back. it's a very sad story, and i don't know how anyone can stand hearing it and not caring.

i wouldn't call myself a tree hugger, as most people say. but i can definately say that i care about the environment and it needs so much help to be fixed. and while i don't like what i'm studying, it does make me feel better that what i'm doing right now is helping to clean our messes up. i was talking to greg last night about how we now have so many alternatives to fossil fuels that we shouldn't have to use them anymore. we have very cost efficient fuels that can be made and work just as well without polluting, and i don't know why they're not more enforced. we do so much to this world without thinking about who and what it might effect. but i guess man has always been greedy since we became "the superior species" here. but that doesn't make us God and we shouldn't be able to harm anything we like just because it doesn't have our brain power or our ability to walk on 2 legs.

if only people would think before they act.

this is a kinda nerdy post, i know. it's just something to think about.

my thoughts on becoming a PA

Woo, a new place to write my thoughts. Thanks to Ms. Amy, I think I have forever migrated from livejournal, as it got rather gloomy and boring lately. So, welcome to my new blog, where nothing is as it seems and the world is looked at through rose-colored glasses.

So, we all know how much I hate what I'm studying at school. Chemistry, who needs it! So, for the past few months I have been looking around to see what my other options are, and I think I might have found a good one. I'm looking into being a PA, or Physician's Assistant. They work under a physician and can prescribe medications, perform assessments, order screenings, all that good stuff. There are a few drawbacks, per usual. I don't have the prereqs so I would have to get them covered in the next year. I also have to have at least 700 hours in the medical field, and I don't know how to tackle doing that yet. And, it's a 26 month program with no breaks for winter or summer, so I would be working my ass off all the time. I would be in class 35-40 hours a week, so I don't know how I'm going to work. It sounds complicated, I know, but it sounds awesome too. Any thoughts? I would have to do clinicals in different areas, including surgery, which I don't know how I feel about it. Gah! I just have to find the right profession for me and this is a start